i will ~ A Poem a Day in May

Scared, terrified

frightened, worried

overwhelmed 

many

But will not take me away

i know what will kill me,

 thus wont

i am

peaceful, loving, open and hopeful

i want a joyful life

i will.

he's afraid ~ A Poem a Day in May

his face was long with sadness

his eyes were empty as the universe

he'd smile to you 

but all you get is fear

hugs? they're colder than ice cubes in your freezer

you'd get close but he's farther than jupiter

as he spoke his voice was shaken 

it was shakier than the 1906 earthquake in San Francisco

he'd give you love 

but no love for himself

he gives you hugs

hugging a spirit

He's scared to get

close

i'm not. 

Leaving ~ A Poem a Day in May

Lungs of water

why can't i breathe in such liquid

i just want to swim away

leave behind my troubles and never

come again

to find the others

who understands my pain. 

am i alive? ~ A Poem a Day in May

alone in a crowd

So much noise in the mind 

but so quiet out.

shallow eyes

but big ideas

small hands

big heart

Many friends

but no friendships

big inspiration

but no motivation 

time moving quickly

im in the same spot

where am i going?

  am i even moving?

am i alive?

Feel ~ A Poem a Day in May

You feel it

You've felt it

it burns

it's too bright

can't quite ignore it 

oh my god! its there!

That burning desire to fall in love

Bird still Sings ~ A Poem a Day in May

Find the birds that have sung songs from yesterday.

Still sings today

The know how to move on

Everyday is a new day 

Even if their story is still the same.

~~~~ found this Picture from Tumblr.. i dont own it! ~~~~

What do you see? ~ A Poem a Day in May

You're running in circles

but your feet aren't moving.

               Your mind is traveling a 

                 thousand miles per hour

Your hands are numb. 

But where are your eyes going?.

You're my Butterfly.

Look how a Butterfly flies,

   with such delicateness 

That's how fragile your heart is.

if you catch it, it dies.

    i promise, when i catch that Butterfly i will let it go

Why force someone to love you, 

when they don't love you back.

  

You wont be my Prisoner. 

I wont be my own Prisoner.

Weirdest Dream EVER!

Sooo.. here it goes! hhaha

if it does not make sense.. im sorry it was a dream.. and dreams are messed up man! hahha 

So i was at a Antique shop, looking for a bookcase and i found a stack of Vinyl Records, and saw some of my favorite musicians and i wanted them. But then this kid came over and said, "Hey! that's my uncles records!" (who had passed) then he said, "you can have them if you take care of them!"and i, well, said "ok!". So i took them, then... i stepped out, and i wasn't at the antique shop anymore!

i was at a Video store all of a sudden! they had movies and books! and they had " I Love Lucy" books! yah know from the tv show?!, i knew they didn't existed! but they were there in my dreams!. So anyways, the books looked beautiful! they were hardcover and the colors were pastel with big  I Love Lucy title across it! it had Lucy's and Ethel's picture on front. i remember carrying them in my arms , i was going to buy them, But then somehow i walked away and took 3 steps and i was somewhere else!! like ! OMG WHY? .. so i walked to a party..the video store was GONE! . and it was actually a family party and i just stood there like.. WTF lol.... and then my bike appeared , i was soo confused. So i turned around and back again, and someone was on it  and asked me, "Hey! want to join me on a bike ride?" and i was still trying to figure out what was going on.. i said no... i did not wanted a bike ride.. so then i started to walk.. and to explore where i was at, and then i saw a store with a bunch of clothes and the store was out in the open, so i walked towards it and i started looking around and i was realizing, ... THESE ARE MY CLOTHES!!  WTF! MAN! Who is selling my clothes? . Then i saw a big rack of clothes so i went through it, (i was curious, i have a mind of a 5 year old. lol ) So i went through it.. GUESS WHERE I WAS AT? 

OUT in the Country! ... i felt like i stepped in a Western Movie!!....so i started walking.. trying to figure out where the hell i was, then i suddenly remembered .. i lost/forgot my vinyl records and i kept thinking.. "omg! i let that kid down! i didn't protected  his uncle's records." and that's last thing i remember of this dream i just started to walk towards the sunset.. i guess.. trying to find my way back.. 

i honestly always have these types of dreams... like why?? WHAT DO THEY MEAN!! im always ending up in SOOOOO many places!!! im everywhere!!!! 

do you have dreams like this? 

what type of dreams do you have? scary ones, weird ones?

i hardly have nightmares.. although i used to have ALOT of nightmares when i was younger.. now?.. not soo much!