Is my Polaroid Camera broken?

I want to talk about my Polaroid camera but first let me show you a delish yogurt thing I found at the grocery store! I usually don't eat yogurt because I'm not really a dairy fan BUT.. omg these are soo good... the little bits you add to it.. just makes it more enjoyable.. I'm the type of person who likes all the crunchy foods I need everything to be crunchy if it's possible! And when I can add little crunchy bits to either on yogurt or my acai bowl... everything is alright in the world. 

But seriously.. try this if you're a yogurt eater 

So anyways... ok so the Camera.. I bought this One Step 600 Polaroid camera at a estate sale for only 2 dollars! And I was super excited because it's been a while since I had a Polaroid! We used to have one but we hardly used it because they weren't "trendy" anymore and it was hard to buy film... so I'm pretty sure dad tossed it or sold it... 

so when I found this one I wondered were I can buy film! I KNOW someone somewhere sells it! And alas! Found a website where they sell film packs! I bought some to try it out! And man oh man... it's pricey! So it's around 18 dollars for 8 pictures!! So when I ordered it was 24 dollars because yah know... shipping and tax n stuff... yea.. I spent 24 bucks for 8 pics. 

But I was excited nonetheless because I was going to try out this cool camera! 

The camera was in amazing shape! either the person hardly used it or they took care of it very well! 

so i popped in the "cartilage" the pack.. the pics.. whatever lol 

and out goes the little blank paper and it works! i was so ecstatic!

thought! "ok carol you cant just take random photos! you only have 8 shots!"

so here you see 4 shots... ok so this is what happened, i decided to take a picture of my little vintage books because thought that would look cute! shot it and i let it develop.. i couldn't remember how long it took to develop.. so i set it aside.. then i went to my living room and took a picture of my dog sitting down... again i set it aside to develop... so around 10 minutes later i come back... and well look at those 2 first pictures... 

the picture of my books,... you can't see it.. only a bit of light from my window.. now, my room was pretty lit (lol) and it shouldn't have been that dark! 

and the second one was of my dog and shot it where the light hits the most in the house! and it's pitch black... no picture. 

the third picture was actually the fourth picture you see in the pic, it was of my other dog.. he was by the window and before it took this i looked up only if there was other techniques how how to take a picture with a polaroid and i couldn't find what i was doing wrong.. but i did found that you can switch the little arrows for more or less exposure?.. so i switched it to the light and took a picture of my dog and this is what came out lol 

So... it came out a bit blurry, i mean my dog did move because since the camera makes noise he did that head tilt lol but its not that bad... so now that i had that light switch i went back to take a picture of my books again and nope,,... same thing happened the first time.. SOOOO i just wasted 3 pictures lol  and i did looked at the inside where you feed the battery and pics and everything is CLEAN like i said whoever owned this either never used it or really took good care of it 

so im going to wait for my dad to take a look at it.. i swear he's a master at fixing electronic things and hopefully he can find the problem and i mean its a camera of his youth haha.

and here is an old picture i'd like to share.. we have so many polaroid pictures laying around. 

i believe this was taken in '94? im the second little bean there.. with my sisters and cousins if this was taken in '94 then i was around 2 years old here lol 

Children of the Corn anyone?.. lol 

sadness is swallowing me whole

it wont chew me up

 making me feel everything 

all at once.

center ~ A Poem a Day in March

Buy but never replace

Receive but never choose

Cry but never regret

Laugh but never descend

Balance...

the ability to balance ...

\

coming back ~ A Poem a Day in March

I don't need your help

i caught fire in my hands

its burning

only i can make it go away

i choose not to 

i can stand on my own

lost, yes.

fearful, no.

need to do what i must.

Burn the demons inside me

i will come back.

friend. ~ A Poem a Day in March

You, with the orange eyes,

why wont you let me hold you?

im pretty nice!

i feed you!

i even give you some rice!

i talk to you everyday 

and hope to find you not having any pain

you cant fly

i took you in

food for you is what i buy

i see you upside down

thinking you might be dead

i get there and you're fake 

you flip and hungry i feed you

why peck me, im your friend.

move ~ A Poem a Day in March

Contentment is ok

but comfort may not get you far

put your wishes in a jar

and take one each day 

and make them happen.

Believing and walking 

can lead you to 

your desires. 

why ~A Poem a Day in March

When blood is dripping from your hand 

you feel the hurt you have caused.

You are holding the heart of the one you loved

cant let go because it is still connected to you.

The veins are disturbing 

the murder of your own soul 

sitting there wondering why, why me why must i be.

Holding your hand ~ A Poem a Day in March

I dance in your eyes

its a grand ball

When you blink

i see blue skies 

It gets cold, and you find me a shawl

We walk over a bridge

and feed the coy fish

You tell me wonderful stories

about the future

how its all going to be ok 

It is why i always hold your

hand. 

life ~ A Poem a Day in March

Where are you from?

do you like it there?

i live on a wonderful place

its a place where you can be free

and eat lots of chocolate truffles

Birds sing beautiful melodies 

i hear frogs croak too

 there's many lilies around 

for you to lay on the ground

the water tastes sweet as my dreams

you can sleep here and wake in you imagination

 live your other life

the life you know you can have.

Light~ A Poem a Day in MArch

The way the sunlight shimmers on the waves

Is the way i see your eyes...

I see dreams 

I see the gleam of imagination 

You hear the screams,

screams that must be heard

never lose sight of the light

you are meant to go in.

Run~ A Poem a Day in March

Don't let the bubbles

 reflect your troubles

Run when not being chased

Run when you want to gain

Tomorrow will be a brighter day

never pull away. 

Dolly ~A Poem a Day in March

I'll take this one

and this one

and maybe this one too

a blue eye and a green eye

hair too? 

yes, let's add some locks

red nail polish

a sundress for spring!

no shoes, for she will be feeling the grass in her toes

braids with bangs

pink cheeks

and a light lipstick

she's such a doll.

they swim ~ A Poem a Day in March

When your sorrows are drowning you

you must swim with them.

be friends

and make a deal.

let them stay.

When you're about to fall 

they shall help you.

it's the only way

for you to live anyways.

Spring~ A Poem a Day in March

Oh! Look you..!

you finally came out of your hole!

yes, its spring!

and it rained

Don't you feel great?

most flowers are blooming!

and bees are finding a mate.

and the wind is immensely blowing petals away

Bright blue skies with big fluffy pillow clouds are making shapes

for us to find. 

Finally feeling the cool breeze 

like if someone is giving me a kiss on the cheeks

don't sit on the grass just yet 

for it might be a little wet.

but dance under the trees make the leaves sing

lay on the ground and close your eyes.

yes! its spring.

You~ A Poem a Day in March

I'm this and you're that

I'm here and you're there

i don't know you

you don't know me 

Someone i can't compare

i lay on the grass and watch the clouds pass by

and pretend you're here

I can easily see your smile in my head

whenever i feel down.

Always telling me the right things.

Even if you're not here or i don't know you

you're always on my mind and on my side.

searching~ A Poem a Day in March

My eyes always looks for you

even when asleep

when they're closed

you see them moving rapidly

frantically searching for you

then, i find you in my dreams

a place i never want to leave.

Resist~A Poem a Day in March

Get up, get one 

Get up again, get one more 

If you stop you can see what. 

Will it be missed? 

If you don't get,will you not gain?

Is it useful? 

Or is it a waste of time of feeling full for nothing.. 

Will it matter? 

Don't get up. 

Leave. 

anew~ A Poem a Day in March

She plucked one by one 

she felt the warmth of her soul escaping

terrified he may be,

took one eye

replaced it with a bead

No longer she was 

but she will be 

Yours ~ A Poem a Day in March

Show me your yesterdays

and i'll give you all of my tomorrows 

a shoulder to lean on and a

heart to hold.

never alone,  all to gain

all yours.

never to be lost 

 again.

I got SHOT in my Dream!

I was at a Taco Truck supporting a friend, she wasn't selling tacos but churros! 

but not any regular churros they were cool shaped churros, so i asked if she wanted me to make some posters to promote her, she agreed. 

So behind the truck was a classroom it totally looked like those portable classrooms they had back at my high school exactly the same!. I was not alone, my old high school friend was there with me, he actually passed away last year, he had a great personality and attitude always made people laugh. so i was happy he was there, i don't know why he was there but he was. So he led me to the classroom to make these posters and there was a bunch of women there like if there was a class going on which i thought i was odd because the taco truck and the classroom was in the middle of nowhere, 

anyways we walked in and greeted everyone, There was this lady yelling at her baby, to make her stop crying and she was trying to shove her in a duffle bag. i assume she was a new mom so i offered her to calm the baby myself for her so i carried the little girl and the baby just smiled at me and she finally stopped crying. I thought the baby needed some fresh air so i took her out,  as i was walking out i bumped into this tall guy, he asked if this one lady was in there and as i responded and peeked my head inside the room to point her out i noticed he had a gun, so i calmly ignored it but he saw i noticed. He said "im sorry" as he proceeded to shoot me, i was still carrying the baby i turned and jumped the rails and he shot me 3 times. i did not feel a thing! so i ran and heard shooting behind me, he was killing everyone in the room. 

I made my way around the truck and i started saying "ive been shot call the ambulance" i said it three times, "ive been shot call the ambulance" " ive been shot call the ambulance" everyone there started calling.

I kneeled down and i let go of the baby, which... ok this is the weird part, (bc dreams are so logical lol) she was a baby but when i was in the ground she was walking. So anyways she wouldn't leave  she just hugged me tight, i did the same. i got up and saw doctors just standing there so i stood in front of them and faced away from them and i just lifted my shirt so show them my wounds, they immediately got me in an ambulance. somehow the gunshots did not hurt at all. But then.. when i woke up, i woke up from my dream and i felt the pain in my back ESPECIALLY on the spots where i got shot in my dream.. i was stunned of what i have dreamt. 

I immediately started googling of what it means to get shot in dreams

there is a couple of beliefs:

1. " If you dream thats someone is shooting you in the back, then it means that you are involved with some questionable people who may be harmful to your well-being it also implies that you are too trusting of others".

2: Getting "shot in the back" is a metaphor for the betrayal by a trusted friend or associate, This dream suggest that the dreamer needs to "watch their back".

Interesting dream right? well it was for me, i have never had a dream like this in my life!! and i can remember this clearly.

Here's another part, on that day we went to the flea market with my family so we were walking around, i saw a child just walking by himself, he was so adorable and i asked who's kid this was and i saw the father, so i left then i saw the little kid walking by himself again and i got a little mad, asking myself " why would anyone let him be by himself that small?!" then the parents came to get him. Soon after me and my dad were looking at stuff and a guy came towards us, he didn't acknowledged us at all but i saw his hand in his pocket like he was holding a gun, you can totally see how it could've been a gun by the way his had was positioned, but then i asked myself "why would this person have a gun at the flea market in the morning".. so i brushed it off.

Later that day, in the afternoon my sister invited me to go shopping with her, so we went to this store called dd's discounts its like a Ross but cheaper! so, i was looking at some clothes i overheard this lady yelling at her kids very loud! she said " Can you please shut up i have a headache" so loud she had people around me turned around and stared. I felt bad for the kids, because if you don't think you or your kids can handle being at the store at this hour simply don't go or don't take your children with you, they get bored!

So that was my day before my dream, i don't know if you caught any similarities.

The crying child/lost child, i comforted the crying baby and i stayed with the "lost" baby since her mother was killed (in my dream) the little kid i saw at the flea market walking by himself.. i guess in my dream i did the things i wanted to do in real life

The gun, ...was i paranoid that we were gonna get shot?

oh! and also, we ate churros that day so that explains my "friend" was making churros in my dream.

Why did i get shot?

Did my mind took aspects of my day to create a meaning in my dream?

what does it mean? 

i have never had a dream that was so similar to my day.. like whoa why is this happening?... 

anyways.. what do you think?