I got SHOT in my Dream!

I was at a Taco Truck supporting a friend, she wasn't selling tacos but churros! 

but not any regular churros they were cool shaped churros, so i asked if she wanted me to make some posters to promote her, she agreed. 

So behind the truck was a classroom it totally looked like those portable classrooms they had back at my high school exactly the same!. I was not alone, my old high school friend was there with me, he actually passed away last year, he had a great personality and attitude always made people laugh. so i was happy he was there, i don't know why he was there but he was. So he led me to the classroom to make these posters and there was a bunch of women there like if there was a class going on which i thought i was odd because the taco truck and the classroom was in the middle of nowhere, 

anyways we walked in and greeted everyone, There was this lady yelling at her baby, to make her stop crying and she was trying to shove her in a duffle bag. i assume she was a new mom so i offered her to calm the baby myself for her so i carried the little girl and the baby just smiled at me and she finally stopped crying. I thought the baby needed some fresh air so i took her out,  as i was walking out i bumped into this tall guy, he asked if this one lady was in there and as i responded and peeked my head inside the room to point her out i noticed he had a gun, so i calmly ignored it but he saw i noticed. He said "im sorry" as he proceeded to shoot me, i was still carrying the baby i turned and jumped the rails and he shot me 3 times. i did not feel a thing! so i ran and heard shooting behind me, he was killing everyone in the room. 

I made my way around the truck and i started saying "ive been shot call the ambulance" i said it three times, "ive been shot call the ambulance" " ive been shot call the ambulance" everyone there started calling.

I kneeled down and i let go of the baby, which... ok this is the weird part, (bc dreams are so logical lol) she was a baby but when i was in the ground she was walking. So anyways she wouldn't leave  she just hugged me tight, i did the same. i got up and saw doctors just standing there so i stood in front of them and faced away from them and i just lifted my shirt so show them my wounds, they immediately got me in an ambulance. somehow the gunshots did not hurt at all. But then.. when i woke up, i woke up from my dream and i felt the pain in my back ESPECIALLY on the spots where i got shot in my dream.. i was stunned of what i have dreamt. 

I immediately started googling of what it means to get shot in dreams

there is a couple of beliefs:

1. " If you dream thats someone is shooting you in the back, then it means that you are involved with some questionable people who may be harmful to your well-being it also implies that you are too trusting of others".

2: Getting "shot in the back" is a metaphor for the betrayal by a trusted friend or associate, This dream suggest that the dreamer needs to "watch their back".

Interesting dream right? well it was for me, i have never had a dream like this in my life!! and i can remember this clearly.

Here's another part, on that day we went to the flea market with my family so we were walking around, i saw a child just walking by himself, he was so adorable and i asked who's kid this was and i saw the father, so i left then i saw the little kid walking by himself again and i got a little mad, asking myself " why would anyone let him be by himself that small?!" then the parents came to get him. Soon after me and my dad were looking at stuff and a guy came towards us, he didn't acknowledged us at all but i saw his hand in his pocket like he was holding a gun, you can totally see how it could've been a gun by the way his had was positioned, but then i asked myself "why would this person have a gun at the flea market in the morning".. so i brushed it off.

Later that day, in the afternoon my sister invited me to go shopping with her, so we went to this store called dd's discounts its like a Ross but cheaper! so, i was looking at some clothes i overheard this lady yelling at her kids very loud! she said " Can you please shut up i have a headache" so loud she had people around me turned around and stared. I felt bad for the kids, because if you don't think you or your kids can handle being at the store at this hour simply don't go or don't take your children with you, they get bored!

So that was my day before my dream, i don't know if you caught any similarities.

The crying child/lost child, i comforted the crying baby and i stayed with the "lost" baby since her mother was killed (in my dream) the little kid i saw at the flea market walking by himself.. i guess in my dream i did the things i wanted to do in real life

The gun, ...was i paranoid that we were gonna get shot?

oh! and also, we ate churros that day so that explains my "friend" was making churros in my dream.

Why did i get shot?

Did my mind took aspects of my day to create a meaning in my dream?

what does it mean? 

i have never had a dream that was so similar to my day.. like whoa why is this happening?... 

anyways.. what do you think?

Broken Ballerina

Broken Ballerina?

She danced even when no one saw her.

when times got rough 

she would tie ballet shoes up to her ankles.

cuts and bruises 

wont stop her living her dreams,

dreams she had dreamed for years.

falling apart piece by piece

she glued herself back together 

day by day she keeps 

hoping she would find love.

but too distracted by her scars

but kept dancing.

always with a smile on her face

find love ~ A Poem a Day in May

world we love 

world we hate

we live in a place

of hope and desires

a place of war and disbelieve 

eyes float around don't know what

they're seeing, 

no connection 

no communication 

no true need

but want 

we get 

we waste

what do we keep?

love? 

love disintegrates

as soon as we try to grasp it

 we are looking for love

in the wrong places

mend your heart

you'll know where to find.

Open ~ A Poem a Day in May

closed eyes

closed heart

open your mind

you open your eyes

your heart starts to see

what lies beneath 

of disdain felt

but you see

it is not so 

love is on its way 

to fill 

the empty void 

you feel everyday.

Smile ~ A Poem a Day in May

a smile is an invitation

an invitation for love and generosity

a smile is a satisfaction

of

something good or malicious

either way

you fall for it

  

Stars ~ A Poem a Day in May

stars

stars are dying

so are you

but

they keep shining

so

are 

you

shine with wishes

dreams keeps them alive

 we look up 

with hope

wondering when our love will arrive

Burns ~ A Poem a Day in May

Life's like flames

Trying to escape 

But something's holding you 

Nightmares, fear, thoughts 

But in the end

Everything burns 

All you're left is ashes 

Of broken desires 

Escape while you can. 

be free. 

i will ~ A Poem a Day in May

Scared, terrified

frightened, worried

overwhelmed 

many

But will not take me away

i know what will kill me,

 thus wont

i am

peaceful, loving, open and hopeful

i want a joyful life

i will.

he's afraid ~ A Poem a Day in May

his face was long with sadness

his eyes were empty as the universe

he'd smile to you 

but all you get is fear

hugs? they're colder than ice cubes in your freezer

you'd get close but he's farther than jupiter

as he spoke his voice was shaken 

it was shakier than the 1906 earthquake in San Francisco

he'd give you love 

but no love for himself

he gives you hugs

hugging a spirit

He's scared to get

close

i'm not. 

Go. ~ A Poem a Day in May

Sometimes 

You just have to travel alone

To find yourself 

May get lost

It's about the destination 

You will lose 

You will gain 

But it's worth the adventure 

Blue skies 

Bright stars 

Are there to keep you 

Company 

Never alone 

Sunflower eye ~ A Poem a Day in May

Sun goes down

my brain turns on

i paint sunflowers on my eyes

i dream of walking with you

you do 

we even dance

we dance in my sunflower eye 

maybe i should draw you.

maybe we can do more 

your choice. ~ A Poem a Day in May

There's maybe trouble ahead

you have enough 

time to decide

dread or fly

fly

for forever 

be free. 

Darkness ~ A Poem a Day in May

Darkness

darker than closed eye lids

darker than my lost soul

light as my eyes

light as my existence

i have troubles

but i know how to look up

i am far more grander than i think i am 

it's us ~ A Poem a Day in May

The problem is with man, we sit in 

melancholy and wont do anything about it.

we fall in depression

trick our minds

we cant

Sometimes we're the monster under our bed. 

i fell. ~ A Poem a Day in May

i fell from trees

i fell from bikes

i fell from tables

i fell from running too fast

i fell from not walking right

 i fell from walking in the dark 

i fell from my own bed

but i never thought i'd 

fall 

for you.

Sudden ~ A Poem a Day in May

When you least expect it

life hits you in the shins

that hurts!

But its a reality check

we make important decisions in the most painful situations

thats how we grow 

and learn.

Dreams ~ A Poem a Day in May

sometimes fear destroys us,

but dreams,

dreams 

are

stronger

Dreams can take you up to the stars 

or to the arms of love

of the same soul who wanted the same 

What? ~ A Poem a Day in May

                                                                                         oh, a cup of tea will do 

                                                          do what?

                                                                                       why, solve all your problems!

                                                   what problems? 

                                                                                 Oh! honey, you're always in a predicament

                                                                                        here's your tea.

Feel ~ A Poem a Day in May

You feel it

You've felt it

it burns

it's too bright

can't quite ignore it 

oh my god! its there!

That burning desire to fall in love

You're my Butterfly.

Look how a Butterfly flies,

   with such delicateness 

That's how fragile your heart is.

if you catch it, it dies.

    i promise, when i catch that Butterfly i will let it go

Why force someone to love you, 

when they don't love you back.

  

You wont be my Prisoner. 

I wont be my own Prisoner.