You're my Butterfly.

Look how a Butterfly flies,

   with such delicateness 

That's how fragile your heart is.

if you catch it, it dies.

    i promise, when i catch that Butterfly i will let it go

Why force someone to love you, 

when they don't love you back.

  

You wont be my Prisoner. 

I wont be my own Prisoner.

Weirdest Dream EVER!

Sooo.. here it goes! hhaha

if it does not make sense.. im sorry it was a dream.. and dreams are messed up man! hahha 

So i was at a Antique shop, looking for a bookcase and i found a stack of Vinyl Records, and saw some of my favorite musicians and i wanted them. But then this kid came over and said, "Hey! that's my uncles records!" (who had passed) then he said, "you can have them if you take care of them!"and i, well, said "ok!". So i took them, then... i stepped out, and i wasn't at the antique shop anymore!

i was at a Video store all of a sudden! they had movies and books! and they had " I Love Lucy" books! yah know from the tv show?!, i knew they didn't existed! but they were there in my dreams!. So anyways, the books looked beautiful! they were hardcover and the colors were pastel with big  I Love Lucy title across it! it had Lucy's and Ethel's picture on front. i remember carrying them in my arms , i was going to buy them, But then somehow i walked away and took 3 steps and i was somewhere else!! like ! OMG WHY? .. so i walked to a party..the video store was GONE! . and it was actually a family party and i just stood there like.. WTF lol.... and then my bike appeared , i was soo confused. So i turned around and back again, and someone was on it  and asked me, "Hey! want to join me on a bike ride?" and i was still trying to figure out what was going on.. i said no... i did not wanted a bike ride.. so then i started to walk.. and to explore where i was at, and then i saw a store with a bunch of clothes and the store was out in the open, so i walked towards it and i started looking around and i was realizing, ... THESE ARE MY CLOTHES!!  WTF! MAN! Who is selling my clothes? . Then i saw a big rack of clothes so i went through it, (i was curious, i have a mind of a 5 year old. lol ) So i went through it.. GUESS WHERE I WAS AT? 

OUT in the Country! ... i felt like i stepped in a Western Movie!!....so i started walking.. trying to figure out where the hell i was, then i suddenly remembered .. i lost/forgot my vinyl records and i kept thinking.. "omg! i let that kid down! i didn't protected  his uncle's records." and that's last thing i remember of this dream i just started to walk towards the sunset.. i guess.. trying to find my way back.. 

i honestly always have these types of dreams... like why?? WHAT DO THEY MEAN!! im always ending up in SOOOOO many places!!! im everywhere!!!! 

do you have dreams like this? 

what type of dreams do you have? scary ones, weird ones?

i hardly have nightmares.. although i used to have ALOT of nightmares when i was younger.. now?.. not soo much! 

Lovely Flowers.

There are too many flowers in this world to discriminate.

Their scent is too strong to forget. 

i pick a different flower to

make a beautiful Bouquet.

Friends, friends can be anyone, it does not matter what color, size, hair type or religion they are.

Make this world Colorful.

** Picture i found from google i dont own it 

Take Control.

These restless dreams of yours will never leave you

Because you created them.

and the only way you can destroy them, you have to 

Take Control.

You know exactly what to do, you have the answers.

No one can decide what's good for you, but you.

Try not to think too much. 

Try to feel whats in your heart!

We tend to over think EVERYTHING... but we need to chill, go with the flow.. 

and not worry about a thing! 

life is hard but too precious to miss 

life isn't easy... no one said it was gonna be... 

its a challenge and a struggle but you will make it ....

if you really want it 

you will get what your heart desires...

The World is Yours. 

There's no Limit.

** i don't own the picture above... i got it from tumblr.. so i dont know who owns it.. :))

My Picture.

Sometimes i feel like a picture that does not belong in a art museum. and 

people are looking at me, like, what im going to do next. well, i don't do anything. Because im just a picture on the wall just like the others down the hall. But i'll stay here on the wall till i fall and ultimately break free and soon they will see it was me, nothing more, nothing less just me. 

i Wrote this probably like, i wanna say 5 years ago.. when i was feeling like people wanted you to be perfect when we all know we are not... and to pretend like we we're perfect... no one is perfect. but then again we all have different definitions of perfect. i broke free and decided , i dont wanna be perfect.. i just want to be carol. still struggling because some people don't quite understand the behavior of people when they're being themselves.. so its a learning process on both ends... 

so just try to be you and everything will fall in place! 

Hello! , An Introduction!

Hello There! 

This is my first post on this new blog page! i have another one but its beauty related!

Here! on this blog is going to be an open diary ..going to express my thoughts.. on pretty much anything! for example.. Dreams, Motivation, and interests!. 

So let me tell you a little about myself !

Im Carol..*HI*

im 21 i live in California

i like anything vintage i love watching Silent Films, Classic Disney movies.. LOVE Horror Films! i pretty much watch anything.. lol don't get me wrong i have a twisted side.. haha ... but.. i keep that to myself..i love reading, when able, i write short stories, and poems, i love listening to music! i like, classical music, orchestrated music, movie soundtracks, film scores, 60's rock,70's, 80's, Frank Sinatra, Dean Martin, Dolly Parton, AC/DC, Queen, again pretty much anything! i like to be in the creative side.. its an amazing feeling when you start something and you get to finish and feel great about it! i love to encourage others when they're doing something for the greater good! because that is a beautiful thing! i have 2 youtube channels.. one is carolcarol92 which is a beauty channel and CarolsBrain which is just a random channel.. where soon im going to make super creative videos! and hope to entertain people!!  i am very..(sorry if i go back and fourth.. this is just how i am . lol) i am very random, goofy person, also a very quiet gal,  .... i.. have my moments... haha so i hope you get to enjoy my little stories and shenanigans....<3